Today really sucked.
Dad fetched me to school at 4 pm today to finish up my work.

I walked all the way from school to Xiao Gui Lin after school.
You know? The one with the nice scenery?
Anyway, I laid on this rock and stared into nothing for like 30 mins?
Then it started to rain so I took a bus back to Clementi Central hoping that they sell iPod(red product there) They don't, all they have is iPod Nano 2nd Generation.
So I walked around abit.
Stood outside Mac's drinking coca-cola and waited for Dexter for 15 mins, it was raining heavily.
Didn't meet him in the end.
Still didn't want to go back home so I went to a play ground.
Put my stuffs into my bag and my bag under a shelter.
Played in the playground for like 15-30 mins, sat on the slide which got my ass wet.
Laid down on the money bars under the rain.
I could have slept under the rain if i could.
But a lightning striked a few blocks away.
My balls shrinked and thought to myself it was time to go home.
Went home SOAKING wet.
Everyone was looking at me at the bus stop.
Bathed, blowed my hair dry.
Sat my ass down infront of my com till now.

Today is EMO today.
And while I was stoning I counted my worthy close friends and asked myself where were they?
I still don't have the answer...
Maybe its best to not know the answer and just be naive.

Alright, this post is Emo.
I am probably gonna wake up tomorrow thinking,
"fuck, i am a wuss last night" and delete this post.
Then again i might be too lazy to do it.



I may look happy.
I may be laughing.
I may be having a good time.
but I deep down i know that i'm sad.
How do i deal with this?
I am not an EMO.
But why the fuck do i feel like one today?!
Would I cut my wrist and end my life if I had a penknife?
would i?