I am such a fool.
I have been cheated again.
She was supposed to come back yesterday.
But she didn't.

No calls.
Blocked on msn.
Shes with another guy.
Lied to me.
I'm single again.

This sucks.

I thought that I could count on you.
I trusted in you again.
But you just had to break it.

Why am I always the one who gets played whenever I am getting serious in a relationship?
Why am i always the guy who gets his fucking heart ripped out?

I am really tired of this game of heartbreak.
I have been broken countless of times in the past.
The tables turned at a point of time and I was the one doing the breaking.
But it didn't feel great.
If felt wrong.
It is wrong.
I don't like to make girls cry.

So I stopped playing and decide to stay serious.
Then I met you and thought that its a sign to start anew.
Problems started to show like they always do and we stopped lovin' for a moment.

Then we got back together again.
I wanted to give you another chance when you came back.
But now you've done it.
You cheated on me.
How could you? I finally trusted in you again and you cheated on me.
I read your blog, its all there.
I'm sure that he's way better looking and loaded with money.

Am I too young for you?
2 years is too much of a gap for you huh?
I'm sure that you sat down the thought "why should I stay with Joe? hes just an average Joe. He is not good looking at all. Why did I chose him? He's not even rich. Heck, hes living off his parents. Why do i want a guy who won't be able to shower me with gifts, diamonds, rings and all the fancy stuffs my friends have? I'm so dumb to have chose that loser. But no worries, I have plenty of men who are willing to be with me. I'm pretty and sexy, I'll just keep trying and dumping till I find a rich and handsome boyfriend. Omg Joe is such a loser to have thought that I would actually fall for him"

Thanks alot.
I wish you and you're "bestie" a happy fuckin' relationship.
Bitch...
For your information, the term bestie is what girls name their best female friend.
You suck.

This sucks.

Life sucked.
Still sucks.
Will suck.
And will forever will be sucking.


Worst thing is that I can't get it out of my system.
"crying makes you feel better"
Fuck, I can't even cry right now.
It sucks okay?
I feel so empty...

I'm going to go out for awhile.
Have a little walk and some fresh air.
Hopefully I'll be able to make myself cry.
All this emotions bottling up is not good.
What if I go crazy and kill myself?
Will I be missed?
Will you feel bad and kill your "bestie" then hang yourself?


I fucking hope you fucking die or something right now.
I fucking hope you fucking die a fucking terrible death and I fucking see you on the fucking obituary page tomorrow.

My volcabuary is so limited right now. I have officially gone insane.
The world is a mother fucking fucked up place.

I'm out.

Heart broken guy who'll beat up anyone who'll disturb, stare, bang or get on my nerves on my walk tonight`