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18th dec : The Computer guy came and tried to fix my com's sound system on the spot. But he couldn't do it, and he had to take back the whole CPU! My first most precious thing in my home is in some warehouse. Please be safe my oh so precious CPU, don't let those bad people delete your memory. Don't let them delete those songs that you sang to me, those pictures that you kept in your memory, those games that you played with me. Don't let them delete it!~ NO!~
Okay okay. So it was the 18th of december on that day and I got my N level results. I was so relived when I saw that beautiful yellow application form that the people who passed need to fill up for sec 5 on my result thing. 7 POINTS! okok, so its not that great. But I didn't expect myself to get that little points. I told some people that i failed just to see their reaction. Haha, my good friends and I have all moved on together. But some of them didn't make it. Please stay, don't go. Stay for another year. Time seems to fly so fast yea? It felt like I joined 2n3 not long ago. Now we're all moving on to 5n1, together. =) But soon we'll be getting ready for Prom night together. Soon we'll all cry together cause we'll miss each other when we graduate. Soon we'll all go our seperate ways in life. Sucky huh? Thats life for you. Its way to short. We went out after going home to change, there was only 7 of us. Wan Jin, Glenn, Alvin, Wei Seng Ying Ren and Louis. We all went to Suntec for dinner at Yuki and Yaki as a celebration. We ate ALOT!~ Went to play 45mins of pool before going into the theathers for a movie. Eragon, its a great movie. WATCH IT. After movie we took the last bus down to Bukit Panjang Plaza for L.A.N. We made lots of noise in the shop. Haha, we played till morning. And it rained the whole day!
19th dec : Went for breakfast at 9+ and went home to rest. I wanted to stay up cause I was supposed to go out with Ben, Aaron and the rest of the primary school people but i accidentally fell asleep. I had the best dream I ever had while i was alseep. I woke up at 3 in the afternoon but i forced myself to go back to sleep again because of the best dream. I dreamt that I was celebrating Christmas with a girl~ Woo!~ And the dream continued and continued with that same girl. Damn shes pretty, cute and a great personality!~ I'd do anything to get to know her if i ever see her in my life. We had so many good times. We had so many things to talk about and we didn't have anything to argue about! We had romantic dates under the stars, went on holidays together to Paris, Venice, Thailand, Scotland, America. We went everywhere that was considered romantic and fun. Man i love her so much. I loved her that much in 24 hours!~ Then Aaron called halfway and i woke up around 8+ in the evening okay, so i woke up and talked to him for awhile. And all i was thinking was, i want a girlfriend i want a girlfriend i want a girlfriend. haha. After we put down the phone, I missed that girl in my dream badly. I wanted to talk to her so badly. I'm gonna describe how she looked like so I can read this entry everytime I start to forget how she looked like. She had very beautiful hair that i played with and smells nice when when she laid on my shoulder. She had long fringe that partially covers her right eye and pilate, plaits, however you spell it.Sometimes its just a simple ponytail or just a normal white hairband. But she still looked beautiful. She had a nice scent of perfume on her when you walk beside her, but a greater scent when i hugged her. I couldn't describe the scent cause its nothing i have ever smelt before. She smells heavenly. Her eyes were very nice, it looked like a "D" turned 270 degrees when she laughed with me when i did stupid things, at my super lame jokes and while we were taking pictures together. She wore braces which looked super cute on her when she smiled. I keep seeing her in very short shorts. Denim type. er, Hot pants? And the noodle shirt. Spagetti thing. I dunno how to spell the food!~ And i think that she wore a bikini inside? I dunno. It wasn't a wet dream of me stripping her luh!~ The thing she wore goes around the back of her neck. Dunno what its called. She wasn't wearing that everytime. I also saw her wearing a long sleeved shirt that doesn't covers her beautiful shoulders, once in black, the other in white and other in blue. She had a nice necklace around her neck. OHOH!~ and earrings that is a golden star. And tappered jeans? i think~ She wears converse shoes. She owns ALOT of simple looking converse shoes. I love converse shoes more now. haha. And she dances really well. I think shes a dancer. I didn't have a chance to ask her! DAMN!~ But she danced like a princess!~ Well, not ballet, but still as graceful. I remember seeing her dancing Hiphop and saw her doing a handstand! WOW! haha. She could play the piano really well too. There was this other time that i saw her wearing a white flowy shirt that covered one shoulder and i wasn't sure was it Mini pants or skirt. She looked great in everything. Even when shes just wearing a normal shirt or pants. She really looked great in everything. We had so many romantic and fun times together. There was once, we were caught in the rain and we were under this dry small shelter sitting down talking and kissing(alittle). And everytime there was a romantic scene. Music starts playing in the background. Something like in the movies. Haha. She can't cook very well but I still enjoyed everything she cooked for me. Shes my Mysterious Dream Girl that I'd do anything to get if i ever see her in life. I do hope that I meet her soon. I didn't get her name though. Oh, she was 14-16 from her looks. If anyone knows anyone that looked like her, please contact me ASAP! It just might be her. Anyway, I went back to sleep around 12+ and I deamt of her again! This time she didn't wore braces and she kept saying I'm sorry. I dunno why. All of a sudden she'd look into my eyes and say "Joe, I'm really sorry" And everytime i asked why did she apologise she'd continue whatever shes doing as if she didn't hear me. We still had a good time. Then in the end the both of us ended up in this dark black place where nothing was visible and all that i could see was me and her. Even the floor was black. Then we had a conversation. This time she wasn't laughing or smiling. She was sobbing abit. She seemed really sad. At first i thought that she was afraid of the place we were at.
Girl : I'm not afraid about this place. I'm sad that we will never see each other here again.
Me : (forgetting that it was a dream) Why? I wouldn't leave you baby. I'll still love you where ever you are.
Girl : We don't have a chance. Its not up to me or you.
Me : (steps forward to hug girl) Don't leave me.
Girl : (hugs back) I'll be back. I promise you. The conversations that we had. The fun times we had. You may realise that its the same the next time you talk to a girl. I may look alittle different in life. But she's just like me inside. *sobbing*
Me : (hugs girl tighter and tries to break the tension by starting a joke) will you still be as beautiful? haha. (trying not to cry)
Girl : *sobbing more* I'll look however you want me to look like.
Me : (kisses forehead) I love you. Why do you have to leave? *drips a tear*
Girl : I'm sorry.
Me : Don't be. I wouldn't hold it against you. At least i now know what kind of person i like. I'll never stop searching for you.
Girl : (pushes my fringe aside)Don't be so mean to anyone in future okay?
Joe : I won't.
Girl : Thats my baby. I love you.
Me : I love you more. *smiles*
She kisses me one last time and walked away into the darkness. Leaving me behind crying like a kid. Then i woke up with tears in my eyes. Man, the feeling of knowing that I may never seeing her again really sucked. How the hell did she know that i'm a mean person to people i do not like? haha. Okay, i'll be good from now on. I promise you mysterious dream girl!~ haha. I really miss her. This has got to be the weirdest thing that ever happened to me. I was able to sleep for more than 24 hours, and it felt like a few years has passed in the dream. And how can one possibly fall in love with a girl who doesn't even exist? Could this dream be a sign? Or is it just a dream? Did she really mean it when she said i'll meet her in life again? I wouldn't mind if she looked abit different. I don't understand why she said i will never see her in my dreams again. I will never forget how she looked like when she said that last iloveyou to me. I really miss her right now. haha. All i want for christmas is her. This is my first time falling in love with a non-existant girl. Feels DAMN weird. If there is a greater being out there, a god or some sort. Please grant me my wish and let me find her soon. Thank you. haha
Man, This Post is Way Gay.
